Sorrie for the long absence....

It has been ages since i wrote my last blog. Could not find the time to write something. Either that or i could not think of anything to write about. Anyway, AJ drew with YJ yesterdae...0-0... it was a great game...the best we've had so far....if only we could plae like that on a regular basis.

had a game against Greenview Sec a couple of weeks back....got trashed 6-0..but am still happy after the game. They were superb man! Excelllent in the air...with their accurate passing and crosses. Realised how different they are from AJ. Anyway, we didn't plae our full team.

will be having a game at 5 later today against Mr Koh's team. A team filled with teachers. Hopefully we can have fun there. Again, not evryone will be turning up. But i'll be goin to gain match fitness.

Will miss tonights mentor meeting. WE were invited for dinner and chit chat session at Nizam's place....but the team is more impt. so...sorry guys, i can't make it.

Have been playing this five letter game with Hock recently...whether its during lecture or outside lecture...haha.... he cant seem to beat me in our last few "encounters".....but maybe i m damn lucky lah..haha...Our last game: I had to make a final decision regarding the word... i already found out the last 4 letters of the word by my fourth try--> _ atch. The word can either be "batch", "patch", "match", "Catch","watch"...
Worried that he could try to change his word selection...i told him to write on a piece of paper the word he chose... looking at him....i chose the word "patch".......and guess what....i'm right.....haha....and he told me that he'lll spend 2 hrs looking up the dictionary for words that he could use to "make me lose"....haha
It was a great game...

And yuying and hock made me realise that i spend more time looking at my planner instead of doing the things i was supposed to do. I guess they were right. I closed my planner and manage to do a mindmap for approximation of roots. Thanks guys!!

lowest point of this year......

The fifth wk is almost coming to an end. Finished cny deco todae. Finished chemistry spa skillA todae. Also had a friendly against NYJC todae, which I’ll talk abt in a while.

Chinese new year deco……haiz….not a class effort lah. Only some did. Its not that ppl are not participative but I think its more the class leaders fault lah, not preparing the stuffs early and getting ppl together. Ppl are willing to help. Ppl made fishes last fridae but I wonder how many of those fishes actually made in on the class display. I feel sad for them lah…

Family day nxt and still, we haven discuss wats our nxt step. Not wif the class at least. Just some ideas and no concrete conclusion. Segragations? Conflicts? Really….. Is it serious?…I dunnoe…. I dun tink so… our class is doing fairly ok lah….or maybe I’m still lagging way behind others…

Soccer…yes….soccer. Against NYJC. Beat them 2-1. Tackles flying in. More like watching wrestlemania. Unfriendly friendly. Our team played ok lah. Won through two free kicks. But at the end of the day, was feeling quite sad lah. Even though I didn’t miss headers, concede any throw ins, give away free kicks nor lose any possession … I was still sad lah. Played less than a minute I think. Getting so hyped up over nothing. Recovered from my fever for nothing. Not that I was damn good that I deserve that place… but its just a feeling nonetheless…. Worse than that of my first week in skool. Just goes to show that I really need to fight for that spot and show them what I m capable of. But overall…. this match will not be a forgettable one. But having been reminded to do reflections, here’s what I think: Never be too excited for any game(WHAT FOR?!)…and todae woke me up…I must start being aggressive…and more focused… more confident of my abilities….ITS JUST A FRIENDLY…why risk getting injured??..

….depressed…

FInding Forrester

aNother great movie i just watched. Very inspiring. wished that I too could write like Jamal Wallace.... i missed the first one hr of the show....wasted...watched the other 2.5 hrs....its a long movie... and a great one!

the family day planning is a very exhaustive one. NOw i noe wat it feels like doing a business.... hope something more productive can be done by the end of next wk....

the fourth wk?...

Finally had some time to spare.....been busy catching up wif hw...tired after soccer trainings...
Life has been great. Had greater control of my time in skool...was doin werk most of the time after skool..

BEen havin problemz wif my electrochem and differential eqn....waaah....hav been copyin hw blindly for the past few daes.....and i m not proud to say tt i copied. Didnt want to impede the progress of my grp members... fizix is the IN subject now.Happie to say tt i can do current of electricity and dc circuit by myself....not forgetting the help i got frm my classmate in helping me master some key concepts......

sooccer trainings.....one word......"GREAT".......mmmm

two cool words tis wk......"class politics"

being a class leader was fun.... exhaustive,yes.......tiring,yes.....but its all in the package. Its hard standing in front givin instructions.....afraid tt they might sound like orders... always trying to get ppl to werk WITH u and not FOR u...... getting ppls support and cooperation. Lucky for me, my class is great.....supportive... but wen the teacher gets involved.........it spoils everything...2 ...hav stepped down...givin others a chance to lead.... one is going soon....leaving me and the 2 new guys...whos the new addition?I dunnoe.... wen will i be next? I dunnoe. I nvr got a chance to lead wen i m in secondary sch...or pri sch...am taking tis chance now... and will i ever give it away? guys....if u want my role...u have to stage a revolution and challenge me.... i aint going down tt easily...not till i ve done wat nds to be done....

LOL ...just kiddin.....

anw, better do some werk now....haha....till nxt time....

3rd week of skewl already??!!

ITs already the third week of school...can u believe it?.....I certainly can't...

I m still in the team.Lucky me. Must put in my BEST in the next few trainings!Practising heading balls after balls quite painful oso...hopefully nvr get brain damage...touch wood..

Regarding the pre-u seminar, dun tink i want to go. COz then i'll have additional thngs on my timetable... and the teacher didnt ask for a response so....ya...maybe nxt time...haha...

Did lots of work this past few days. Holiday homework have all been done! But i have yet to revise this year's work like electrohem...redox...DC circuit... must quicken my pace a bit...and start relearning last year's work too!

Today, Hock told me tt he do currents worksheet till qn 8 oready. SO fast!! SO i stayed back in skool and do tt tutorial...till qn 9..haha....Its good to hv ppl like him....can sort of have a benchmark....

Some people make me sweat during civics today...becoz of some things i wrote in my reflections for SL...its unclear...the way i wrote it made it seems like...nvr mind...haha....and the teacher said i didn t blush, my face just turned red....-_-"... anw..hmm...yah...

Time is going by very qwuickly now....i can feel it....can you?

The second week has passed...

Time does fly. First, it was Happie New year and now, it has since been two weeks. The second week was a much pleasant week. Been doin work consistently. But I have also been sleepin early. On Thursday, did homework in skool wif Hock ...and Yuying(...hock gf...haha...no lah), frm 3-7... got home ate..and slept at nine!..in my school uniform!...while watching a lil bit of TV! ... didn't had time to redo an essay nor revise for chem spa assessment. Woke up at 5 on fridae morning and had to rush--iron my clothes(not the one i wore to sleep), pack my bag and read the chem notes...

Manage to do the chem spa assessment..though with loads of mistakes... anw.. had soccer training tt fridae afternoon.The COach made it clear tt he'll be droppin some players to reduce the squad to 24 men...meaning 5 had to go. WE had a game against each other...coach busy writing stuffs(maybe who's in and who's out)... played ok today... but me and shak kind of surprised we didnt get to play the second half...is he tryin to see more of the others by not playin us....or did he had enuff of us...?...HAHA...anw, shook hands wif shak while on the stands..calling him the captain of recre soccer, me the vice-cap... gave posts to the other 4 ppl who weren't playing. It was a way to loosen up things... to look forward into the near future. If i m not selected, i wun be tt upset... the coach and the team have really changed me as a footballer...But i noe i ll still be in the team for the nxt few trainings.....pray hard!...and play hard!...shak too!

Had fitness training at the end of the session...ran a couple of sprints...was ok...feelin a lil bit tired and had wobbly legs...didn't feel like dyin though coz my fitness had doubled or tripled over the past one year...haha... was encouraging the other J1s and all not to give in to their tiredness.... haha...was in their shoes early last year... anw, the results for who's in and who's not will be out next monday. Hopefully my name will be on that list.

Was asked by the form teacher after skool on Fridae afternoon,me and the other 2 class leaders...regarding some pre-u seminar...a wk stay at NUS... 30+ students frm each JC...during the june hols...... sounds like fun but have to go thru some interviews...which is what most ppl are afraid of... anw, my knowledge on things is not tt good also...meaning i wun be tt good a candidate for the seminar... but it took me less than a minute after she told us tt i should try and go for it. Take wateva opportunity tt comes in my way. I got nothing to lose anyway right? It'll be a great learning experience for me if i do make it thru...so...hmm....do i hv wat it takes?... Should i go for it?...I wouldnt noe if i dun try...well....i guess i'll go for fun....face the panel of interviewers....and see wat happens!...i told myself..u have to go thru these kind of interviews at some point in life...be it at work or when i apply for a place in cambridge...lol...so..i guess i ll try..yeah!
Like i said...i got nothing to lose but all to gain...

Till nxt time..!

A week has passed....

Passed thru the weeks wif my Gp hw undone.... escaped the wrath of my teacher. HAd to finish it during the wkend.... nd to study for chem test too!

Had college CIP on Fridae..given a chance to lead. Boy! Did i had a great time. Inyan was a very cooperative group. Did loads of planning prior to Friday with the rest of the class leaders...it kind of made us closer to each other. We should hv more college CIPs like this....maybe J1 lead....

Today is TUesdae...frm today's standpoint, the first week of school was really horrible. Felt alone maybe becoz there's so much to do... needed time to think and talk to myself...after the weekends...more stuff were done and when the second week began, i felt kind of relieved. Became more focussed and have more time to be lame. Haha.

It was a wake up call the past week...a warning of how there's simply no time to spare in J2...everything was rush rush rush...like what other teachers have said last year. No more bargaining for more time to do hw... it's me who'll be sitting for the exams...it's me who decide whether i want to do my work or not... So....i'll be looking forward to brighter weeks ahead!

Urs trulie..

A bad start to the new skool year

Firstly, the day started in pe lesson. Took height and weight. I weigh 66 kg, 177 cm high. I was the only guy in klass to lose weight. Haha.... Anw, the rest of the day went downhill. It started with Maths. We were supposed to hand in our holiday assignment today, but i was not ready to hand in...so did the others. She got rather mad and began lecturing us... fair enuff... i too would be disappointed if i was her but its the first day of skool for goodness sake, although I dun wan to give excuses for not handing in my work on time. Finally managed to complete tonight. Will hand in tmr first thing in the morning.

Next was GP...didnt bring the newspapers...didnt bring summary...the 2 last minute essays were horrible... haven complete articles.....must hurry redo them tonite.... i didnt want to show that i have attitude problem... Was generally disappointed wif myself.

This was not helped by my sudden feeling of loneliness which MAY be due to the loss of ADib...(yes he is still alive)...Loss in a different sense. Spent my day in isolation most of the time...the person I talked to the most was myself.... and the only thing that followed me everywhere I went was my bag. Anw, i needed time out from the rest of the world...Just so others noe tt I am not avoiding them nor do i hate being in their company. I need LOTS of time to reflect, do stuffs....

In general, had a really bad day today..... must prepare for tmr's assault. Tryin to do as much stuff tonite. Better get goin now....

Second day of "Happie New Year!!"

Began my day at 7am, just like yesterday. Began with physics, just like yesterday. Finally finished my physics,unlike yesterday.

Anw,was heading towards the bathroom when I saw this little girl. She was looking at me...then she looked elsewhere. No no no....its not anything supernatural lah...It's just that there was a show on tv."Amy" was the title. That girl, maybe ard 6-7 years old, looked so preety... so I stopped and lied down in front of the Tv. So, the girl's name was Amy, Amy Enkar. The setting was Britain...seems like it to me.

Amy was deaf...as I soon found out that it was due to shock. She could not hear when ppl talked to her, but could hear when they sing to her. The story unfolds in such a way that in the end...she could talk. It was a very very beautiful show-- the best of its kind. It formed tears in my eyes at the end of the show. Never has a show been so touching. Wonderful! Amy Enkar was played by Alana de Roma..is she french?Haha....wonder how preety she looks right now...:)

A good start to a new day of the new year! Have to rush through my General Paper now...Later..!

Its almost seven now...and still doing the essays...workin on the outline for my second essay. Tv's showing Ocean's eleven tonight. MAN! Its a must-see-movie and if i choose to watch this once-in-my-lifetime movie, I must BURN my midnight oil...See how later...I tink i can finish the 2 essays tonight...I shall also try to do as much gp articles as possible. DO the MOST IMPORTANT ONES first. It's always like this at the end of the holidays. Normally, I would cry on the night before the start of school..hehe.....because I have lots of stuffs still haven do...I normally regret not fully utilising the hols. BUt not this time...I tink I can handle all the scoldings and stuff like that...and is more capable of using all the time available to sort things out.Yeah!

Just came back from the barber. MAde one BIG error...tagged along wif my mum. She too wanted to go out. My hair was ALMOST perfect....when she suddenly appear out of nowhere and told the barber to cut it even shorter....ARGGHHH....the barber asked me, "u sec wat?"...Please...I am seventeen....He said he have a sec 2 son...and he allows him to do wateva he likes wif his hair....My mum still thinks I am in Primary school. At least she wants me to be the 9 year old who would walk close beside her,hold her hand....But she has to accept that I am 17!Anw, at least she still cares about me...but...grr.... Have to iron the clothes for tmr...will do tt while watchin Ocean's 11...will it be a cool show?...Better than national treasure??Lets wait and see..

Thats it from me today... come what may when school opens tmr....i m prepared to face it with everything that i've got!...BRING IT ON, 2005!

My first day of "Happie New Year"

I had a "great" time today...yea rite... Started my day at 7 am today. Did physics homework till abt 9am.Had breakfast. Continued with physics again till 3pm.Its now 3.27pm and still doin physics...almost done...argh...My backside gettin numb already.Hmm....lemme predict what'll happen later...I ll do physics till about 6. Bathe. And do GP at night. Lucky tonite's movie is MIghty Joe Young...watched already!!Quite boring lah, unlike National Treasure!Whahahahax;)

Just remembered I need to repair my bag...theres a huge tear on the top part. Wanted to buy a new bag but, must spend the funds we have WISELY. Its maybe a norm to get everything new just because its a New Year but I prefer to use my stuffs till it cant be used anymore. Looks like i have to give my bag a scrub too since it has been almost a year since i washed it. Wait...my cousin gave me tt bag...SO..it may be years since the bag is washed. All this must be done by tmr or the bag will be wet come Monday. Hopefully it doesn't rain tomorrow... like it did for the past hmmm....4 days? But if it does rain tmr, I dun need to go for the Mc Ritchie morning jog tmr...made compulsory for all soccer ppl.

Its 8.28pm now and still doin my physics....grrr....chat wif grace for a couple of minutes, the funniest thing i ever seen or heard today...maybe it shall be "The first joke of the New Year"....In her nick....she put there "i ate my dog and hw". Hahaa.. it may not sound tt funny wen i mention it like tis but, it was HILARIOUS when i first saw it. Lifei put "My dog ate my hw",but i found it common. But Grace's one,found it farnie. Maybe it's also another common one...but I never heard of it in my entire life. Ok then...must rush my physics now....hehehe

Its almost 10 now...almost done wif my physics...just a few qns left.I shall leave that to tmr coz rite now, it's, in the words of Hock, "articles chiongin time". But before i do that, i shall end off today's entry and start posting it already!

Today, was a boring day. Was filled with homewerks. Who else to blame other than...the TEACHERS!!!??? --No lah...me! I brought this unto myself. GOt 8 weeks of holidays to clear up my hw and of all the days there is, I chose to do it on New Years Day. Maybe, this is a sign of what MY 2005 would be like...full of last minute work, boredom and lots of time on my bum doin work. Haha...maybe not..

Anyway, heres wishing me, myself and I .....and of course to all my friends out there....including Strangers... who may or may not one day be my friends...

............."Happy New Year!!!" and may u all have a pleasant year ahead... :)

Goodbye 2004......HOLA 2005!!!

Wats there to celebrate about the New Year? To me, it means more homeworks,stress,new stuff to memorise,old stuff to memorise,the A levels,need I say more? To those of you who'll be goin to Sentosa for the Countdown...beware of tsunamis!!!Whahaha!...The tsunamis wasnt expected...but it happened.And just because smart people out there says we're sheltered...that does not mean we are safe coz' no one in this world can escape from His wrath...And then there's also the notorious enemy of the world,terrorists who hate this kind of events...if one or two of them slip in undetected with a body strapped with C-4....BOOM!

Anyway, enuff with my nonsense.It has been a long time since I wrote my last entry. Had been busy with all this homework stuff that I couldnt think of anything nor have the time to blog. The "start day early,end day late" routine didn't go as according to plan.It was ok the first 2-3 days...but then, theres the soccer trainings and matches. I couldnt sleep late,worried that I ll be tired the following day. So I slept early and I couldnt start my day early coz' like i've said..theres soccer. Even when theres no soccer, it is damn tiring following this routine coz' the amt of sleep loss accumulates...and I ll be very very tired for 4-5 days after the 2-3 days.
But by constantly following this pattern of sleep, this will reset my biological clock...so it'll slowly integrate into my daily life.....no concrete evidence though!

My 2004
It has been a year full of downs ...and ups.

January-March:Got posted to AJ.Was the only JC I wanted to go to due to some unexplainable reason...Had a good 1st 3 mths class...got tauhid,Karthik,Kin weng....formed one super slack group....Somehow...I got influenced by them to skip lecture and tutorials and "make money"....LOL! Nthg much to say regarding school work,except that I was the GP rep which gives me the chance to know everyone in class better. I joined the interclass debate too...was an extra..the fourth speaker...haha...but still got a certificate of participation. Can put inside portfolio.

Towards the end of the 3 mths...there was a physics competition which requires us to build sthg...i cant remember what.Guess what?My grp comprises of the 3 guys mentioned above and we DIDN't DO ANYTHING!! The physics teacher got so mad that she WENT ABT SAYIN that she's the teacher in charge of admissions and that she may not allow us to return back to AJ after we got our O level results. EVEN if we got enuff points! ANd there we were...worried that we may not return...I was especially worried since AJ was the only JC I wanted to go to..and therefore..I contemplated about goin to POLY..the place I wanted to go to in the first place.

In the end...I manage to get into AJ along with Tauhid,who was also my secondary school friend.The other two went to YJ...not because of the PHYsics teacher, but because they didnt have the points...Halfway...Kin Weng,who was my friend when i was in Primary 5 and 6...went to poly.

March-October: Since I can't remember anything in specific, I ll lump the months together. Had a great class after the second admission exercise...but a lot were complaining about how our class lack the bonding...how their first three months class was better. But nothing significant was done to solve this problem. From my very own eyes, I think that our class just needs a longer time to bond as compared to other class. BUt i think, the bonding NOW is still not strong yet haha....every one has their own grps in class...Anw, I dun really care about class bonding and all. The thing that is most important to me is that we as a class can do things as a class, respect one another and can tolerate one another's presence. It is good enough that there's no violence in our class...and the only conflicts we may have is when we discuss about class bonding...ironically.

Studies wise, I ve been struggling with work. I have poor control of my time, sadly. When it comes to tests, I been getting FFF for two consecutive common tests. I told myself tt if i want to promote...must do better for the third common test and the promos. AFter more hardwork and commitment to my studies...did manage to promote---with the minimum grades required.I should count myself lucky. During the period after the promotional exams and before getting the results, I told my mum that there is HIGH POSSIBILITY that I may get retained. Lucky for me, she seems to understand that JC life is not that easy...

Next year is the deciding year! I dun noe wat to expect...but I m definitely more than ready for it.Hopefully, I'll breeze through next year and get excellent results for my A-levels...and then go to U/hunt for scholarship. Would AAA be a realistic target? I tink its possible.Till next year then....

The engines are running....

Sunday Night
Sat down and arranged my chem notes and tutorials and all. Was all in a mess. Then, in a matter of less than half an hour, it was organized. (If only I knew this earlier) Anyway, I was in the mood for homework. Did chemistry for ard 2 hours....by 11, my eyes were already tired. Quite painful to keep them wide open. So decided to take a short break---on the bed. LOL! Never take a break on your bed! Anw, woke up the next day. Nevertheless, at least I woke up hearing that my engines have started running.....

MOnday Morning
Had thought abt starting my days early to make up for "lost hours". Did wake up at 6.45 this morning. Washed my face and all and the thing I did wrong was to have another 5 minutes on the bed. Woke up at 10. Argh! 4 hours gone.

Realised that there's soccer this afternoon. Man! This would take my 12.00-6.00. Have to accomodate this in my planning next time.

Monday Evening
REached home at ard 6.30. Ate and watered the plants outside. Was doin chem inside the room at ard 8 when i opened the door to ask my 2 bros wat movie are they showing on TV. "STEAL" was their reply. OMG! How could I forget! Missed the first 10 minutes of the show. BUt that's where the scene of the guys on rollerblade flying over the tall steps were shown. That was so cool! Anw, had been wanting to watch STEAL since like when....2000? Haha...Review: "I'd give Steal 3 stars. They relied solely on their stunts and all to make me want to watch. Other sections in the movie was rather slow and boring." (UNlike National Treasure, which I gave 6 stars!!Awesome piece of work!)

ANw, did chem from 9.30 onwards and its now 2.40am. Had made a sign earlier this morning--"Do not Sleep before 3.00AM!" to remind me not to sleep early. End my days late,remember? It's working alright... But maybe its because of the scheduled appointment with my chem tutor tmr. Thats the reason why I booked a slot---so that I am being "pushed" to doin my work.

ALmost 3 already. Eyes open close open close. *Yawn**Yawn* Must persevere! Told myself that I like staying up late(Its true, except that I cant tahan the tiredness) and that I want to solve as many questions as I can. Telling myself this kept me up till 4, when I decided to turn in....worried that I might sleep through chem remedial.

Tuesday Morning
Nope...didn't sleep through chemistry. Went through half of my holiday assignments and just nice, managed to go through all my doubts within the 2 hours allocated. Was really thankful to her. So patient and all. Though she still can't seem to know her facts well, she wouldn't be there giving me and other students of hers remedials during the holidays if she had known all her stuff. The way I see it...the more cleverer they think they are, the more "busy" they get. Despite all the negative comments by other students, I still think she's a great chem tutor. Btw, she was the want that made me started doin my chem hw this year. If that guy was still teaching us, i would have given up chem. And yes, THAT guy knew his stuff alright!

TUesday Afternoon
*Yawn* *Yawn* Reached home at 11.30. Ate breakfast/lunch and played NHL on the PS....wanted to take a break. Feeling very very tired. Fell asleep while watching TV. WOke up at 4. This tiredness I am feeling is making me think twice abt the whole "End my day late, Start my day early" routine. I don't know. But following this routine yesterday made me finish half of chem holiday assignments. Lets see how my life is affected in subsequent days.

Seriously, the engines are running. Can you hear it?

LOng night.....

Looked at my watch today....9 December....eh wait a sec. Ooops, its the 19 already. For once I thought I still had a long holiday ahead of me. Its 12.45am now. Just watched "You got mail". Kind of late you may say but I am the kind who watches movies screened on tv, which would then be 4-5 yrs old already. See goin to cinema as a waste of money....not that I hv loads of money to begin with. Was a good movie. Kind of slow, unlike National TReasure, but very the romantic. If only something like that happened to me. And how I wish I was Joe Fox ...(Tom hanks, the multi millionaire).

SAt on my chair plotting my next move. Did some maths... and more plans for the future. It's almost two and still doin maths, a genius in the making?Hopefully that's true. End my day late and start my day early. That would help recover "lost hours". But what would happen to me in the long run? Sick?

NOw, when i am feelin bored or stress, I ll just have to take out an old sketch book of mind and doodle, scribble...to relax. "Talk to myself" by writing stuffs in a notebook..some sort of a diary....haha..... Tonight was silent...the aircon went off due to the timer....heard the clocks in my room tick. Not one, not two but THREE clocks... not that i have a problem waking up and all.... kind of have so many clocks...what to do with them...why not use all three?

Drew out a plan to crash all my due stuffs into this 2 weeks. Was like "HUH? Still got so much time?"

Why is it always like this when u make a time table.... you seem to have all the time in the world? BUt ain't gonna relax no more. NO more same old mistake of delaying stuffs. Will do chem on sunday and monday. Then on Tuesday can ask my teacher questions.

I give up. Fatigue is killing me. I'm confused. I'm Tired. Gonna slp over it. Reflect on my day...past and future....and change.

Hopefully, someone will help solve my problem...in my dreams...zzZZzzZZ

What's next in life?

I have always been one who lives life by the minute. Occasionally, I ll look into the future but most of the time... living day by day as it past. What do I want to be when I grow up? I had a thing for aero stuffs...whether its becoming a pilot, the technology involved in planes and helicopters.... This was my dream when I was 11 years old. Thats when most of us have all the time in the world to dream, to imagine...

6 yrs down the road, I've become a mugger....study study study.... not that I become any smarter.... no dreams... nothing. Hock mentioned something about making his first million before 28 during one of our Project Work meeting... 1-2 wks before Oral Presentation.[ Basically it turned out to be more of a bonding session. I slept for 1 hour.... so did the other 3 ... we needed a break. We slept in an empty classrom.Cool huh for a PW grp. Don't think we did much then...but still, I feel that my PW grp is the best!]

Anw, we were talking about Hock and his million dollar dream. I was like hmm....."Hey!That could be my dream! Since I couldn't really think about what I wanna be in future....why not adopt this 'million dollar dream'??" So found out that this could be a reality.... This is still my dream.

And tonight, a friend of mine asked...something along the line of ..have I been looking around for information regarding overseas universities and scholarships. Obviously, I did not. BUt she really made time stopped for me and made me think carefully.... "shouldn't there be a purpose in my life?"...."I should at least have an idea/dream of wat is available to me after JC"....we talked about degrees ,masters , phd..... introduces to me to the concept of life after JC....She gave me Cambridge's website for me to look ard...wow!...Cambridge was THE university I always hear about in school when I was eleven....[back then, my teacher was the greatest] So, she once again kind of made time stopped for me again and made me think..." Was it a joke?...asking me to look at Cambridge?".

Of course I knew it wasnt. I knew that if she thinks its possible for me to be heading there in future, why shouldn't I think likewise? Why must I always see myself as a lowly-creature that can't do much? Been struggling with academics nor am I good in sports. But this shouldn't be MY excuse to look down on myself!
I keep forgetting this though.

ANw, she also mentioned about London's IMperial College direct masters in aerospace engineering...4 yrs.. and this rekindled my childhood dream.

I do have a dream after all. It was there all along... buried deep in me. Everyone out there have a dream-- it's just a matter of searching deep within.

What's next in life? I know that I shouldnt be living as the days roll by. I should look ahead by years. An engineer in the making, a millionaire in the making or a pilot in the making? That's what's next in life. ANd I have to work hard to turn all these dreams into reality.....

So Cambridge, here I come!

Last day of SL

Final day of SL....so sad.... gonna miss them, the blinds and the volunteers there,and *hehe*.... Had a great 2-3 weeks there. We have to write reflections after each session.... mine's almost done. Was really tired today. Legs feelin' very weak, same like Hock. Frankly, boredom starts to sink in today. After 2-3 weeks there and doing practically the same thing over and over again, it was a boring day today. But that part of volunteering. It made me stronger mentally. Even though I feel like quitting sometimes.... the spirit of volunteerism in me prevents me from doing so.

Touched the horse today. Don't believe can ask Grace....Finally..... It feels kind of warm and nice. Not that scared anymore...haha.....And will miss Hock singing too....

LOng dAy......

Read lots of papers today. In fact, the whole of November and the later half of October's morning papers to be exact. Had not been reading/touching the papers eversince the exams in early October. SChool's opening in 3 weeks time....so had to READ UP....as well as do 42 articles. Have been cutting interesting news as I go along.

...which includes

1. Casino here not a matter of money versus values
2. Modern education "churning out robots"
3. US colleges reach out for more boys
4. Dutch rethinks free speech as ethnic tension grow
5. Why Arafat failed in quest of statehood
   
6. Lessons for Singapore from Swiss science powerhouse

....and my personal favourite....."I will hit the US until it is bankrupt,vows Osama"

And also, found out after reading November 17's paper that writer Goh Sin Tub was a 77 yr old man.....and he had just left this temporary world. He was the author of a book my Primary 5 teacher introduced us to( the book, not the author). Ps: My english's still fuzzy . His works were marvelous -- Race against Tim and Quasher of queue cutters... just to name a few... full of twists....very touching.... All that is left of him are his wonderful works.

My Sis went home today saying " I saw Sylvester! In Sun Plaza's McD!"(She supports Taufik, as does my whole family...except me of course!)

OMG! Why wasn't I there? haha......... In case some of you out there who dun noe hu Sylvester aka Sly is.... he is the guy who's suppose to win Singapore Idol if it wasn't Taufik!!grr... Anw, earlier in the day, she did mention abt Sly living in Sembawang....the place I live....but tts it den.....hope I ll see him ard

U rock SLY!!.....hmmm....yah....

Also, watched NATIONAL TREASURE today... what a great show man, was disappointed that in the end they....( how can i spoil it for you guys!) but there was a twist. hehe. Anyway, I'll give it 6 stars. The pace was good. Full of action and suspense! Not a boring scene at all! I was like " Cmon cmon...the bad guys are behind you!"...You guys should go watch it....

More work to do now..... so thats it for now...

Progress Report

Wednesdae
11.50 pm
>>>Took out a piece of paper and sketched roughly all the things that needs to be done

GP

• Essay1 "Let it be."(The Beatles) Is this a good advice?
• Essay2 "The youth today is dictated by self-interest." Is this true of young people in you country?
• 2 Compre Passages (Promos and SAJC Block Test JC2 2002)
• 42 newspaper cuttings+p.e.e+mindmaps+link to essay qns

Maths

• 18 pgs of Holiday Assignments
• Self-directed Learning(SDL):Linear Interpolation
• SDL:Numerical Methods

Physics

• 13 Qns from holiday assignments
• Past tutorials
• SDL: Data Analysis

Chemistry

• 34 qns given in small piece of paper
• MCQs in TYS for Reaction Kinetics, Thermochem, Ionic Equilibria, Organic Chem
• Prepare for Revision Test

Watever your mind can conceive, and your heart can believe, you can achieve. ANd if you put your heart and mind to it, you can succeed.

Disappointed....

I've been saying all this while that I haven't started any of my HW yet and that there's only 3 weeks left before the term starts. I keep telling myself that I have to start now..... or else there'll be no time.

SADLY, I've not started doin anything concrete. I'll start tonight, while waiting for Real Madrid's match....hope they lose...but they're no longer THE team to hate.....Chelsea and Arsenal more like it....Too BAD!! Dun care......

ANW, dun noe what I'll do tonite.... but definitely...I'll do something all right..

Otherwise, I'll be DISAPPOINTED......

Sick.....

Saturday: Went to cousin's place. Had an open house there.....ate lots of food. Spent my night there as I can catch my favourite team Man U in action against Southampton. Poor Ronaldo.....missed a couple of chances.....he was frustrated even though he finally scored that final goal. Good game though. There's an outside chance Man U can win it!

Sunday: Woke up SICK..... sore throat and fever. Feel very very weak. Muscles are aching. An ankle injury I've picked up in the game against VS made it worse. BAthed in cold water..... not much difference....grr.... covered face with wet towel....not much diff too.... Is having SL tmr... HOpe will feel much better....

AND " Happie Birthday to HEATHER!!"

Monday: Not much time left....must go SL oready or I'll be late. Feeling quite alright though my right eye keeps twitching ......WHO'S TOkIN ABt Me OuT thERE???....Haha.....juz kiddin'

Hope I'll feel better as the day progresses......

ANd....HAPPY B"DAE TO MY TWO BROS...... 11 yrs old oready...must act like one ok?.. What should I get u guys.....hmm.....a kiss?? Haha....gtg now......

Fatigue...

Had a game at 9 this morning against Victoria School. There's three 30-minutes long halves, but can we still call it half? Anw, played in each half as centre-back. Waaaah!! Super super tired. Never lasted that long in a game before, but its the second time I played a full game. We drew 1-1....could have gotten the winner. I think I am improving as a player. Has been 2 months since I joined the team. Have started sliding to win the ball. And today, I won my first aerial ball...seconds before the final whistle. Pathetic I know... but I think I am playing differently compared to when I first started. It's a good start anw. Have to up my tempo... Will miss Monday's game( there's a small tournament against secondary schools AJ organnised) due to SL, but like the captain said after the game today,"If got SL nvr mind, but must continue to train on your own". He's very right.

Heard 2 guys got dropped today-- they played left backs with me today. Scared I'll be next coz my knowledge on the game is very superficial. My fitness oso like what. Will start jogging in the morning...been wanting to do this since a long time, but never had the time. Must be always on my toes.

Slept till 6 today...really really tired. Forgot to remove my contacts, again. Its been like what, my third time? Lucky never go blind. Was heating up the food when the phone rang. My teammate from Canberra United, a team the Community Club created, needed help to paint the markings on our field. It's almost 7pm...and still painting??!!

Anw, being the nice person that I am...haha... got on my bike and rushed there. The field is just behind the school in front of my house. Got home at 7.45. Reheated my meal and ate. Watch TV, Brady Bunch .....I dun evn remember the title!

TiREd!! Oh yah....Hock showed me something funny yesterday. Lame fella lah that guy. 100%....haha.... Hock ..hock..... ever so crappy. Visit http://www.go-quiz.com/loves/loves.php and u'll noe wat I mean. Hock told Adib too!Wonder how many names they typed.. hmm..Haha..

Till next time then!