11 April-13 April happenings...

My sincerest -sowies- for this another long entery!

Had wanted to blog yesterday instead of todae. But something funny happened last night. It was ONLY nine o’clock. I switched on the com, with one thing in mind, to blog. (I needed to blog down lots of things.) Thinking that it’ll take a few minutes to on, I went to my bed and lie down on it. And when I finally opened my eyes, the whole room was dark. The com was off-ed. I looked at the clock—4.45. SHIT! I slept. Not doing any reading for my Physics Spa. Not doing the corrections for my Maths vectors test. Den the Chelsea- Bayern Munich game came to my mind. I missed it coz the game’s already over. Awww man! I must have felt really tired. I guess u dun need to have a CCA to get tired easily. Doing school work’s enough to make u tired!

Anw, lemme continue from where I left of, which is Mondae. I was feeling stress on Sunday night. Really stress. I cannot think of anything to write sia. The essae topic was “Should all form of gambling be abolished?”. I chose to do this topic coz it seemed very easy, especially wen the casino debate is happening right here in our country.(casino=gambling) My immediate stand was obvious – yes! Think of all the social side-effects of gambling…u noe, the bankrupts, suicides, loansharks… But wen it come to the actual writing of the essae outline….. my brain froze sia. I can only think of one reason why gambling should be ban! It’s the same with the casino debate in Singapore. When Singaporeans were asked whther or not they like the idea of having a casino in Singapore…WE said NO NO NO NO NO! Wen asked why…..all the “erms” and the “oohs” and the “aaahs” and the …. “wait ar, lemme think a while” come out. I couldn’t crack my brain that night…. I got so fed up that I just went to sleep. I was ready for morning…ready for the scoldings I may get on the first day of this week.

Mondae: Lucky for me, I didn’t get any scoldings. Mrs Goh didn’t ask for the maths assignment and Ms Tan didn’t come school. But Ms Tan told us to hand in on that day. I needed to get it done before I went home. Went to the com lab to type out this blardy essae.. I typed and deleted….typed and deleted… after 45 minutes in the com lab… I wrote 1 paragraph while Subu, who was sitting beside me was finishing on his. He was gloating(haha..a new word I just learned) about the fact that HE was actually doing better than me! It was quite surprising also lah. I could have typed nonsense and simply hand it in, but I wanted to submit in a quality essay. I got damn stressed out. I said “AAAAAAAAAAAh! I give up!” I switched off the com, shook my head and went to the area outside the bookshop. I had to go for some workshop at the Dance Studio—some counseling werkshop.

Outside the bookshop, I sat…and thought…. and thought…. still no idea whatsoever regarding the essay. I was thinking of doing another question. Then, Nizar came … to borrow my complex number 2. I decided to see if he had any idea regarding the topic. I showed him my rough plan. He said the question seemed easy. He began to read out all my points in a particular manner. He was putting my points and scribbles into a logical structure and said, “ ok what! Wat so difficult?” And then he left. I sat down thinking abt the things he said. But still, I still couldn’t think of how to begin writing. Den Yuying came by… she wanted to see my complex number 1….. she got stuck at another question. She sat for a short while. We talked… I told her about the essae and how I could not do it. How I was feeling damn stress. How I cannot take it anymore. Den I told her that I felt like committing suicide. And guess what was the next thing I said to her? ….. I told her that ironically, the workshop I have to attend, the counseling workshop…. Is for me to learn how to counsel my friends if they are feeling bad and was thinking of committing suicide. Haha! She said good…. Coz den I’ll be able to counsel myself out of committing suicide. Damn stress…

The Counseling workshop: It was quite an enriching workshop. Lemme just jot down some of the things I remember..

1. U need to have listening ears
2. u need to listen for facts and feelings when ur fren is talking
3. there’s an increase in youth suicide
4. more male than female commit suicide ( GP essay could be the no. 1 cause..haha)
5. Listen emphatatically….and this can be expressed through facial expression… show that u understand and feel how ur friend is feeling
6. Listen more than u talk
7. And if ur fren tells u that he or she wants to commit suicide, u should not keep it a secret, even if ur friend tells u not to tell anyone.

Regarding point 7, the instructor asked us, if while counseling ur friend and u eventually find out that ur friend is thinking of suicide and ur friend tells u “ PLEASE…. Don’t tell anyone about this okay?….” and he or she gives u tt sad look, how many of us would really not tell anyone? Only 3 raised up their hand. Me being one of them. My reason being that he or she is my friend, and I wouldn’t want to betray that trust. Yea… we were told to seek help first though. But I will try my best to talk him or her out of it.

After the workshop, did homework at the usual place. Waited for the soccer guys. Remember that I told u that Yong got called back into the team…. He’s out again! (Hey Yong…see….i mentioned u in my blog!!) We were at the MRT station—me, Zhi Kai, Ronaldo, Yong and Boon…. And suddenly, we were talking about my blog. I was surprised that they knew about my blog. Ronaldo said Mark, his friend, who got kicked out some time ago….clicked from link to link and ended up here in my blog. As far as I noe, only 1 person links my blog to hers…. Anw…. Ronaldo said my blog very funny… my writing style very good (…xie xie ni….xie xie ni..) but he said that after every para…got HTML thingy….i was shocked!

I didn’t noe about the HTML thingy. Coz u see, I am currently using Firefox, so I dun see all the HTML language…but wen I found out from Ronaldo abt it…. I checked….using Internet Explorer. Man was my blog messy! Its ugly….

Now, I would like to apologise to everyone for this inconvenience. Its hard to read what I wrote! I guess Internet explorer sux. That’s why I use Firefox now. Anyway, no one told me this before, so I didn’t know. But now that I noe, I guess I ll be editing all my previous entry to make it nice again. I am a perfectionist. Everything has to be perfect. Well not everything perhaps, but some things just have to be perfect.

Anw, my com hanged on me on Mondae. I had to use a spare old harddisk to type out my essae. Long and boring story so I wun touch too long on that. Here’s a quick flashback of Mondae night.

The com spoil. Had to replace harddisk since I needed to type my gp essay. But the old harddisk got no Word. SO had to use wordpad. Damn ma fan sia use Wordpad. So I decided to write out the essay on paper first. I was writing at my study table first. Wanted to lie down so I took a pillow and lie down on the floor face down. Halfway writing the first paragraph, I dozed off. My bros woke me up. I told them I am thinking of a point. Continued writing for a while, and I fell asleep again. My bros woke me up again and asked me to switch off the com. I told them that I needed to do some research for some examples. They eventually went to sleep…. And so did I!(As usual…)

Woke up at ard 3 plus. Wrote some things and went to sleep again. Woke up a few minutes later. Awww man! I needed to get the essae done. So I sat down properly and scribbled everything down. I think I finished the essae just slightly before 5. Den, I went to the com and typed everything as fast as I could. Luckily, I managed to type everything in 45 minutes. My hands were sore and I was sleepy. Went to iron my clothes and got ready for skool.

TUESDAE! The day which I think I yawned a record number of times. Was yawning throughout the day! Sometimes I even got choked by my own yawn. I felt like yawning but the yawn won’t come out. By morning break, got the essay printed out and handed in. As for the maths correction, Mrs Goh asked for it and she told me to hand it in before 5. Man! I tot I would be easy…. coz it’s just vectors, but man was it hard! After PE, while the rest went to plae badminton I tink, as planned, I went to the usual place to TRY and do maths. Got some blanks so at 4.50, I went to the staff room to tell her that I had to hand it in tmr instead of todae. Request granted and I had to den rush and change for my HEATS – the triplejump.

Me, hock and Eugene signed up… they sae want to jump for fun. In the end, the two of them went to plae soccer. Lucky got qiuteng to jump wif me. I went there not knowing wat to do. I’ve seem ppl at Olympics do tis kind of things before…I see like kind of stylo…tts why I wanted to try. When we were given practices…. My legs cannot get used to the rhythm…missed some steps…foul here soul there…. I could barely reach the pit… After several jumps….i felt rather confident lah…. My aim was the sand. To feel sand in my shoes. My first jump, from the 9 metre mark of course, was a foul. Everything was okay except for the landing part. Mr Koh said one leg landing cannot. Wth! No one told me that lor…..grr….den the second try was a 10.19m. Tis was quite ok coz some J1s weren’t even reaching 10m even though they have done triple jump before! Haha! (hey…I am not gloating..hehe..)

Since there’s only 7 of us I think, we went to the finals…..lol…. and for my third try, my aim was to beat my second jump….and I did…I got 10.26m. Halfway in midair, I forgot abt landing on 2 legs….so I landed with 2 legs and my whole body,just to be safe. Haha….Mr Koh said if I hadn’t landed that way, I could have gotten another 1 m or so. Man! And for my fourth try, I got a 10.46m!
Qiuteng got third. He got 11 plus for his last jump….it was our first time jumping for the 2 of us…so it was ok lah. Jumping had never felt so great! Felt like jumping over and over and over again sia. Hhaha…one of my most memorable time in AJ!

Yuying was so nice todae. She asked me what’s my essay topic coz while reading her Times magazine, she wanted to help me look out for articles I could probably use…. man ! But I told her that it was ok coz I finished the essae oready. But man….tt was so nice and thoughtful of her…. Coz I would definitely not have bothered if I was her …haha….. but den again….i learnt something new that I could use another dae….man!….

Wednesdae! Hmm…nothing much todae. Oh ya…..becoz of yesterdae’s jumps … I woke up with my feet and right knee feeling aching. I didn’t think tht jumping was a big deal…no offence to triplejumpers out there ….so I didn’t do warm ups….lucky I didn’t end up as “Limping Boy”….lol…no offence….anw..Physics Spa was great. Den after skool, watched tennis. Boring game sia. Den went to do homework at the usual place. Finished my complex no. 2 and marked my GP essae. The gambling essae. I felt that it was a preety good easse…. So I gave it a 29! Den the dark clouds marched towards our skool….i din want to get stuck in skool….so I rushed home….btw, I think I need to bring a pillow to rest my back….coz sitting on the chair…. For 5 hours straight…man! Back and backside all pain sia… :D

Almost 11.40 now…better do my home work….

Nights!