ND prep -- 8 Aug 05

Kind of disappointed wif the way i handled the preparations for ND celebration tmr. With regards to the Reflections project... i kind of sabo-ed Grace to do it. Eugene got mad though... and though Grace, as usual, dun mind....she's always nice. But i kind of mind, for not actually askin for volunteers. Actually, i din think i sabo-ed her...well, its a long story though.

Anw, Grace did it by herself, i think, and had already submitted it. Really am thankful to her. Thanks GRACE. But am disappointed at myself though for not having allocated the task professionally.

Then for the mascot competition, i kind of sabo-ed Hock for it. And got lots of F words and fingers from him for it. Well, i sort of asked for it lah. Who likes being sabo-ed? I was like the saboking in sec skool lah and when i kena saboed, i hated the feeling lah. Anw, i knew exactly how hock felt. And oh, Hock aint gonna be the mascot tme coz the gurls decided to do it. I guess Ms Tan got kind of sick of me not get anything decided for during tt meeting and told a grp of girls to handle it. So yea.... disappointed...

And there's also the finger food section. Again, din allocate jobs to anyone. Ended up with Alista and co. doing it. Budden... i guess Alista doin it mostly on her own? And guess what, i kind of sabo-ed Alista to be in charge lah. I noe tt someone has to be in charge coz if not, a grp might not function properly. So i kind of "asked" Alista if she could be the one. In a way, sabo-ed her. Feel damn bad abt it lah!

Next is the picnic, Hock sort of volunteered to be ic. And after loads of discussions yesterday nite, we ended up wif bread, kaya and jam. BUT then, when i logged in tonite, i learnt that there'll be ham and bee hoon. Initially, i din noe wats ham lah.... but later learned tt it was pork. Haiz.... sien.... ppl do err i guess. BUt i really thot they should take ME into consideration, shouldnt they? Though i am but a speck of dust. And Hock did his best and asked Hp to make the bee hoon as halal as possible. Appreciated it Hock. But then, the utensils she used to prepare the bee hoon would have been infected by unhalal stuffs. Or like i always put it "Infected by pork molecules". Someone once told me that religion is meant for the past and how it is no longer relevant in the modern world. How religion restricts its followers and other "rational" thoughts atheists would normally think off. BUt nevertheless, i totally disagree with such arguments and wish that such atheists would know what'll happen to them on Judgement day and rethink....

Anw, Hock seems worried abt me not eating tmr.... haha... the makings of a good leader i guess...(and i noe at this juncture,hock will say "eeyer").. but to be honest, i m actually being fussy. Dun blame my religion. Blame me. If anyone's thinking tt my religion is "restricting" my life that is... haha...

But me being the one who's willing to sacrifice for anyone, i dun mind. Let's not say "17 vs 1, i concede". Lets just say that i've got to learn how to survive in a dog eat dog world.

Thus, on the whole, i kind of failed to get anything done with a proper system. Disappointed.

When i try to be like others and simply heck here and heck there, i am like lying to myself. Coz it aint me. When i try to forget abt rules, i noe i really am lying to myself. Coz whatever values he may have within him can never be deleted or editted no matter what others say abt his values. Coz the values have been running thru his blood ever since the day he was born. Thats how it has been for the past 17 years and that s how it'll be till the end of time.

Always trying to be everyone else but himself
Loves himself more than anyone else...haha...
I wonder why

And hock hv been doing work like 24-7. He reminded me to practice maths. Which reminds me, i better switch on my engine to slightly higher speed.

Hock,
Our entries may differ in length
Cos evn if i do write more, it doesnt mean that my life's more fun
Knowing that u find joy in the things u do is most impt